waiting waiting and waiting...

wow what a year its been... haha many things has changed but me... i dont think i changed at all... why... because i cannot forget and its engraved in to my heart and my mind... its hard because i can never forget special things... what made me work so hard and what made me start writing blogs.... sigh... what else can i do.. who can tell me? i guess nobody but myself.

some people tell me to forget but its very hard and i just cant forget you know... even though im a understanding person but i can also wait for you no matter what happens feelings may be lost but it can be gained back though my one are gone too but my heart tells me and pulls me towards you.. people may think its imposable or long but i never though it was at all... since i will do it and if its long i can wait just keep me on top then i be there no matter what...

nearly been a year but it seems like it was just yesterday we met since i dont know whats going on in life any more... y do i feel this pressure pushing me.. but its strange because its not pushing me down... before it always pushed me down but now... maybe i understand what was your situation thats y its not pushing me down any more... 

i tried to impress but it seems like no one wants to convest it... lits like you want to hide those feelings for i can give up... but i will never give up because u always tell me to gambatte =] so i cannot and i will not, you once told me never to give up even though u let go ... even if u didnt say any of that.... i still wouldnt let go no matter what.. so its best if i wait but i wonder if i wait too long maybe u will change... but if u really do have me inside your heart then im sure u would not =] because i feel something important between us haha may seems wired but i guess thats how it is =]

snow snow snowing =] 

Good Night :P

i miss you ...

no words i write can ever say... how much i miss you every day.

as time goes by the loneliness grows, how i miss you.. nobody knows...

i think of you in silence, i often speak your name...

but all i have are memories and a photo with your name....

i never stopped loving you.. i don't think i ever will..

deep inside my heart you are with me still...

no one knows my sorrow, no one sees me weep.

but the love i have for you, is in my heart and mine to keep..

heartaches in this world are many, but mine is worse than any...

my heart still aches as i whisper low.. "i need you... and miss you so."

the things we feel so deeply, are often the hardest things to say.

but i just can't keep quite anymore, so i'll tell u anyway..

there is only one place in my heart that no one can fill... i love you and i always will..

so stay with me my baby irvil ~

New Year Here We Go ~

Happy Anniversary baby =] hehe i know its a bit early but i wanted to send this with your xmas present ^^ hope you don't mind xD you know i missed you so much and i know you feel the same way... because i read your blog and i can feel it too.. you know i feel the same thing you feel for me >.< i know its hard but I'll be there soon so we both must Gambateh!! ~

i know recently you been very busy with work in KL... how i missed you every day.. i really wanted to hear your voice forever when i was on the phone to you T^T but i know i cant because you need to work... sigh... you know only 120 days left but after that 120 days i still wont be there because we delayed it a bit remember >.< but i promise you... i be there... i will hold your hands... hug you tight...just don't cry because im with you now... so smile and  tell me you love me.. because i really need you in my life... 

Happy Anniversary and have a wonderful Christmas ... all i want for Christmas is you... but i know you will be busy so its ok i will be fine hehe just spend time with my friends and family i guess but if we live together i only spend it with you and alone with you ^^ i love you so much and i hope you like the presents ^^ oh this is my little nope pad you wanted hehe =] okies... i miss you a lot so take care of yourself and enjoy your xmas <3 love you baby Irvil ~

~ your Hubby Bau Bau <3 ~

                       Muuuuaaaacckkkzzz ! =]

Merry Christmas Baby.. I Love You ~

Today the 25th December 2011 Christmas and spending time with my family... wondering about someone else in my life because i miss her... but... i wish i was there with you right now because i know i couldnt stop smiling ^^

hmmmm my life changed this year dramatically i realized it when i met this one person thats very special to me... and it changed me to a much hard working person someone that will achieve there goal that they set, i realized that you need to take chances and to take this chance you need to put your life on the line even though some people is against it but you wouldnt care because you really want to get it done. i put my life on the line already... some people may think its stupid but i think its worth it because once im with her thats when my dream comes true you know some people die for there dreams so dont think its that simple =]

well guess thats enough as always in London xmas is boring nothing to do and everywhere closed just spend time with family and have dinner =] okies Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year Everyone ^^

~ How i wish this happened ~

Baby i had a dream of you today... i dream that you txt me.. telling me your feelings about me with a big smile and that your going back to JB.. so i got happy and i called you ringing ringing... you answered and i said "Baby.. if you don't work you wont be earning any money..." then you said "I already finished work and im heading home back to JB and i will wait for you there to come..." then i said "Ok i will wait for you to get back home ^^" you said "Okies baby.." then hanged up.

After you got back home and went in to your room and saw a small little box on your bed right next to Tofu  (piggy) so you went to pick it up and you open the box...there is a little paper with a message on it... you read it and it said "Baby if i was there with you now... would you let me put this ring on you..." you saw the ring in the box and you was very surprised... after that moment someone hugged you from behind...you felt that this person is very tall and you also felt that you have a strong connection to this person... so you closed your eyes and tears started to flow down your cheeks... so you said "Baby i missed you so much..." then i replied "I'm sorry.. i cant wait any longer.. i want to be with you forever..."

Your family was outside your room listening to us.. so then i took the ring from the box and said "Baby give me your right hand.." you was in tears... i said to you.. "would you marry me?.. i didn't prepair 520 rose yet hehe.. so don't be mad ok ^^..." then you hugged me tight and said "i only want you... T^T".

This was what i dreamed of today.. when i woke up i felt very happy and im proud of my relationship with you Irvil... what more can i say... i told you everything already... so you should know how important you are to me... muacks i love you soooo much hehe ^^

baby... i want you... i want to hold your hands... take you far... take you with me... take you to a place you never seen before...

Bau Nguyen

19:18pm                                                                     04.12.2011